What do you want to be son?

So I asked my son who is going to be 12 in one month yesterday," What do you want to be when you grow up? "
He said "Mom I am just trying hard to be a kid." I said, " Oh yeah," and he said, " Yeah, I want to be kid for little longer." I said, "Ok." My eight year old when asked says, " I am going to be chef". I said, " Are you sure, you are only eight that is big decision to make for the rest of your life." He said, " Yes, I am." The oldest one does not surprise me b/c he is just big ole kid. He still wants to sit on my lap and hug. Which is fine I am trying to hug him as much as I can b/c soon he will be grown and thinking about moving on his own. It is 6 years to him being 18.

My younger one does not surprise either he has been talking about having his own restrauant since he was six and we were out on a mommy and son date. He told me as we sat waiting on our pizza he was going to have one and there would be tables for kids and adults. I asked him why and if he wanted to sit on his own and he said no. I just want to be able to touch the floor.
Then I began thinking how I as mother would be to them when they were grown and found myself thinking I know how to be a mom to a kid but how to be a mom to a grown son is whole new thing I need to be praying about. Thank you Lord for helping me see I need to prepare but also helping me cherish the time and "Be still". I am just trying hard to be a mom and reminding me even though my feet touch the floor I still have growing to do in You.

Humbled.....

So Christmas this year I learned about the true gift of Christ in Christmas and Forgiveness. I received a gift from someone I did not want to thank. I know you are thinking and this person calls herself a Christian. My did the Lord humble me on my self-righteousness. I did end up thanking but first I had to repent of my anger and unforgiveness and confess to the person before thanking them but in my thank you I spoke of the Lord and His glory and It was Him who had them do give it, and Him who drew me to receive the gift, and Him that allowed me to repent and Him that Forgave. I have been in church for years and spend daily time in the Word. Also after this God did not stop there. I was so amazed b/c this gift that the person gave me was something I thought was lost, I had to sacrifice it ealier in the year. All this year several things happened to build upon this moment. God still in His mercy and grace and knowing I had this seed of bitterness growing in my heart still did this beautiful thing. Not that Christ and the cross was not enough for this old sinner and not that I don't get all emotional when I hear Mary did you Know or Emmanuel but This Christmas at age 35 the Lord my beautiful Savior taught me how to remain repentant, humble, and forgiving toward all mankind and allow Him to be the Judge, The King, The Rebuker and The Redeemer, The Restorer. Right before I was given the gift I had studied in Genesis about how God protected Sarah when she was with King Abilimech and how God protected the King by not allowing him to touch her and He went to Abraham and asked him why he lied and how God forgave Abraham and redeemed Sarah again. Not by any means am I Sarah but what a wonderful scripture to study and How the Holy Spirit prepares our hearts to repent.
As I pondered all this happening and was blessed yet again to spend Christmas with my family and my parents. My mom had recently had an operation and was home For Christmas but then fell ill again. We all were up and down praying just being restless. I was up with her one night and I was sharing with her about my gift and then she said Paige all you have to do is call out to Jesus and He is and will finish molding you and making you into the godly woman you so desire to be b/c your heart is in line with God just trust. I got up and went and read out of devotion as my mom lay there in peace even though she was so ill. The devotion said even Christ who was God and is God did put Himself equal to God but served Him unto death. How arrogant I had been and How much Joy filled my heart knowing that He had forgiven me for putting myself equal to him and how humbled I was and willing to just serve now and be content to serve unto death. Romans tells us to live at peace with everyone with every effort and leave room for God's wrath. My How thankful I am He is a Holy God.

Time

Wow, last week flew by and now this week is beginning. We put up our tree. I remember when I waited for the boys to go to bed so I could put it up b/c I could not keep an eye on them and do the tree and now I am watching them assemble it... time flies. It makes me cherish each day more the older my children get. No more baths to be given... they like to wash themselves now. I do still do laundry and cooking but they are helping with those as well. It is bittersweet, new, yet good b/c we want the boys to grow into responsible christian men. Have we made our time count? I think so because we have tried to use our time with them to plant a lot of seed with God's word. It is the only life we can give our children. We are teaching them there is time and season for everything. I try very hard to teach them that each moment and breath is precious are we using it for the most for God. When they fight I say is it worth the time? How much time do I spend on silly thoughts, words, and actions? Even our most joyful moments can be delightful for God if we living the way we should.

Christmas time is so full of cheer and kindness. I even have a brighter look on things not saying that I usually don't but there is just something about Christmas... I asked my husband why can't we all be like this in April when the taxes are due. or even in Aug. or Sept... I think sometimes I grow weary or get in a rut.. and instead I should cherish the time here on this earth.. Another day is another day here to learn, grow myself, help someone, teach my children, and also help grow the kingdom or just another moment to show the wondrous love and glory of God. I don't always see my days as that, especially ones that have emotions and stress and anger. or frustrations or even blah days... with time flying I pray to be more observant of the preciousness of each day no matter what happens in that day.. for we must be mindful we are only a breathe away from eternity and it does not end. Even in the mundane it is time that God has purposed for me to see His hand in the seconds and He is very detailed so I must seek Him to know what the details of my time should be and how they should be spent...

Fantabulous Friday.....

Ask and you shall receive... I prayed to be content everyday this week and the Lord did above and beyond. I must say I become addicted to Facebook and now I have new thing to incorporate self dicipline in my life and time management....ha! ha! One thing is I have made contact with my sweet cousin. She may read my blog now too who knows. Rachel if your reading this I can not express how much joy I have that I have way to contact you and see you more often. .. too many miles seperate us. I know I wrote things I was thankful a few days ago but I have more.

1. For drive thru restraunts when you are sick.

2. KFC's cole slaw.( I always crave it when I am not feeling well)

3. For faithful believers who are sisters in Christ praying for me.

4. For my boys working diligently today.

5. For my husband calling and brightening my day each time I hear his voice ( after 12 years I still get excited to hear his voice on the other line)

6. For Dayquil and Nyquil.

7. For God's provision for our Awana store

8. For children to minister to and all the doors God is allowing me to walk through in that area

9 For God showing me the bigger picture in what He has been dong the past month in my life.

10 For my mom and being able to talk to her and rejoice in the Lord together this morning.

11. For God helping me forgive my in-laws

12. For forgiveness and mercy daily

Well I better stop I am just so happy God gave me a content heart all week. Whoever reads this I challenge you on being enraptured and content in the Lord and let me know what God does and shows you.

more content

Today is wednesday and I can not say enough how wonderful Sunday was. Good word from the Lord on how to keep eyes off of wealth and on Him and the dangers of making it our focus even if we don't have it. I must say my eyes have been distracted a lot lately wanting to be debt free and wanting to save. Got a new perspective on just how much of attitude of entitlement I have. And the lure of laziness wanting ease if I just had this amount. Sorry Lord.

I am hard worker but my pride needs to be gone even more so out of my heart. It was good to confess and repent. Then later this week God gave me encouragement through His word again in study in Genesis and 2 Peter about Abraham and Lot... on how He does rescue the righteous. How important it is for us to continue to be in prayer for the spiritually lost and fellow believers how it is a service to be in prayer even for those who have silenced you.
I think the Lord is helping to keep me in contentment through the week. This week has been a daily progression to less frustration and more contentment as the week progresses.
I have challenged our sunday school class mind you 4th/ 5th graders to write down 7 things a week they are thankful for until Christmas.
!. Jesus saving me
2. my husband
3. God's word
4. my healthy boys who are full of life and energy
5. parents that took me to church
6 running clean water
7. being able to teach with my husband sunday school to willing students!

content

Content: satisfy, delight, thrill, captivate, enrapture.....Enrapture: elate, gladden, gratify, please, rejoice;
ummmm. Well my sweet friend CAMO mom said it has been way too long. It has where have I been no where yet changed... my husband went on a mission trip to Mexico.. I think my heart must have gone with him. I can not seem to stop thinking about the people who he met mainly they were children. As I teach my boys and we go about our routines I wonder what theirs are...
Then also lately I have been searching my heart wondering do I really seek the Lord as earnestly as I should? Am I enraptured with where He has me and what He has me doing?
The weekend was wonderful I don't want to end and we have not even gone to church yet..Sunday's coming... I can say this I am striving to be satisfied in the Lord more each day. We just got done a few hours watching a family movie with the kids eating some goodies and the boys were grinning ear to ear as they headed off to bed. Gladdened. I don't know if anyone else reads this but my hubby and my friend but it gratifies my heart to write and see what what Jesus is having me work through. I recently joined Facebook and seeing old friends and catching up and looking at pics and reading their daily lives has been interesting and fun. I realized even though I am outgoing I have been become someone new... a more quieter soul, more at peace at home, and not so much a people person as I used to be. I used to wonder about everyone and their lives and now I just want to make sure I get through my quiet time with true a heart, be a kind wife and mom, show my family I cherish with each action ( fail daily at this one), and get all my things done on my chore chart so I can write.... I have not done very well blogging. I love to blog and read blogs but is it something that I can get in or will it take away from my time with Jesus. Can't blame for trying to have high expectations we will just have to see how all this fits.

I feel like I run all week, yet now looking at others I see I don't. But I am content today it has been a breath of fresh air. I look forward to Sunday so I can make it through Monday.. what a goal is will I be this content on Thursday? Will I be enraptured and perfectly content every day this week? Stay tuned so far it has been lasting to Tues..ha!ha!

I love you so so much

This is Noah and he loves to crawl up in you lap and say I love you so so much.
He is Emma's brother.. I have had him since he was 4 months and in Oct he will be 4. Wow the times have flown by...Noah is truly a treasure and when he is not around it is noticed. He brings laughter and light into a room and bless his heart he is always having to talk above the crowd b/c he was the youngest until Ella just came. I will post her tomorrow. Noah loves big and I love him oh so so so much.