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to cause to be inactive; remove the effectiveness of.
This is a definition of deactivate from dictionary.com that I found. I recently deactivated my Facebook b/c I felt that my growth in the Lord has been complacent. I am a social person but after reading a book called Feminine appeal. I was convicted on self-control yet again and lack of it in my life. Sin in our lives can deactivate us for the Lord. I was not being effective for the Lord in my life. I was praying for others and ministering through messages ect. I am not saying Facebook is evil or wrong for believers. It is my sin that I had to repent of. The sin of procrastination, pride, seeking man's approval, and spending time on the computer to remove myself from my daily life as a break... a get-away. In the book it asked us what we had as relaxation that was a sin, some watch T.V. and stay up late and then they get up late and not available to serve their family. I have always been a night person, and now reading this book I was convicted by the words written in it that. The book said it was sin of pride. I just was heart broken at what I had done and at the realization of how much I had been stealing precious minutes to prepare for my family. I was heart broken at the sin I had committed towards God. I was heart broken on not listening and obey His Word.
The Lord has always laid on my heart who to pray for and when. Why had I suddenly lost that Trust and think I needed to find others on my own to minister to through Facebook? Why had I become so fleshy? Because I am sinner.
Another thing that I allowed Facebook in feeding my sin nature to do is remove me out of making real relationships with others and just relate through comments or likes. No one needs me to like their comment who am I? I am just dust. No one needs my comments. No one needs my quoting of scripture. God wants me to be a biblical woman who will surrender and submit to His Will in all areas in my life. He does not need me, but I must make Him my only need. He is the provider of all my needs. I lost sight of that. I need to pray for others to need the Lord. I need to pray for others to be thirsty for His Word.
Yet I found my sinful pride being fed to a dangerous level. It is so easy to feed my non willingness to really listen to God and think I can help others but also to not allow the Lord to guide and lead me in my relations. Pride is such a horrible sin. God despises the proud.
Facebook's positive mark on my life. Humility. I read in the book about purity and how we should not think that we are above temptation. I am not tempted to look at someone or be unfaithful. I am not tempted by drugs or pornography.... oh but there are many other sins and lusts that I have and as James 1:13-14 says " Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed". My lusts are pride, seeking others approval, praise, and many more... By the Holy Spirit has the Lord convicted me and how truly grateful I have spent time in His Word and His Word has washed me clean yet again in my life.
I don't want to be deactivated in serving my family for the Lord. I don't want to be ineffective. I cherish that the Lord has given me a family and called us to the life He has for us whatever that may hold good things or bad. I want to not be only earth bound but to see and intentionally live Kingdom focus. I have fallen very short of that.
Now that more scales have been removed and light shown into the depths of the dark corners of my deceived heart. I repent. I cherish that He has given me a husband who loves God and God's Word. I cherish that I have two healthy beautiful boys that God has provided me to fulfill their needs. I need to obey God and be a helper to my husband and biblical mother to my boys. Therefore yet again at the beginning of a new year I find myself on my knees in repentance and surrendering to the Lord to be Lord and dying more to myself by His grace. So thankful He gives us a helper the Holy Spirit to help us accomplish His plans for our lives and not our prideful desires.
Here is the scripture I am praying over my life...Romans 13:14
But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh in regard to its lusts.
